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Wednesday, April 28, 2010

I am always amazed (but at times, disgusted) by the influential power the media has.
Whoever controls the media, is indirectly controlling the world, having the influence to lead the public into thinking the way they want the public thinking, or letting the public know only what they want the public know, hiding some ugly truth behind their reports.

I'm not planning to talk much about the influence of the media, the previous paragraph is only the intro to my post.

I always laughed (but most of the time, disgusted too) at the politics in Malaysia now. Politicians switching parties like changing clothes, accusations of one side to another, back-stabbing etc (oopss.. shdn't be saying a lot on this, i dont really know what happens, again i'm only informed by the media and comprehended the info using my own shallow mind)

Often, during the evening news, we'll be exposed to a lot of the "goodness" of the government and the "badness" and "inefficiency" of the opposition.
The media is bound to praise the government and downgrade the opposition, that is a known fact.
The newsreaders are bound to say sentences like, "keprihatinan kerajaan" or "kelemahan pihak pembangkang" or "kewibawaan pemimpin BN" etc etc...
I am not saying the news are totally wrong but, I believe we must have our own "filter" and judgement to differentiate the truth, the lies and the make-ups.

The oppositions have their own media as well, undeniably.
And it is undeniable that their media will potray their "goodness" and the "badness" and "corruption" of the government.
Again, there must always be personal filter to prevent us from being misled.

Anyhow, let's imagine for a while...
Imagine...just imagine that in the next General Election, the opposition wins and they rule Malaysia. Just imagine...

Now, what will the newsreaders read?
"BN yang masih tidak mahu mengaku kekalahan"
"Kerajaan baru yang tidak melupakan kepentingan rakyat"

etc etc...

What do you think?

p/s: I'm not standing on any site of the fence. I'm underage and still cannot vote. Peace!


If I study at home,

  1. I'll be very much attached to the internet in front of me
  2. I'll be going up and down the stairs as an excuse of relieving my body of ache as a result of sitting too much.
  3. I'll be heading to the kitchen every now and then, open the fridge and have a bite or two on whatever edible in the fridge. And my aunt had just came back from Australia, she brought lots of chocs back. Arrghh...
  4. I'll be going to the mirror and start brushing my hair and pin here and there and then get back to my desk.
  5. I'll be going into my room, look at my bed longingly and decided not to sleep.
  6. I'll be pitying myself for having to study and decided to sleep on the couch, putting my alarm 30minutes later. And wakes up 1 hour later.
  7. I'll get frustrated when I dont have enough reference book and hoped I can have a med library at home.

Conclusion: Home Sweet Home

Sometimes we need to pay for the mistakes we made in life.

Sometimes we get off it, and continue with our life. It happened to me a lot of times before.

Sometimes we gotta pay for the mistake we made long long time ago, which we thought we got it off.

Sometimes we thought we're paying for a mistake which we conveniently convinced ourselves we did when actually we didnt.

And sometimes, we pay for mistakes that other people did.

Sometimes, just sometimes, we feel so blessed that we made a mistake and now paying for it.

But most of the time, we blamed other people for the mistake we made without knowing we made the mistake. And when we gotta pay for it, we tell ourselves that we're paying for other people's mistake. 

Complex enough?
This post is generated out of boredom (a BIG FAT lie). It is also generated because i am too tired to study, and is already drained.

This post came out of nowhere when i decided to complicate my mind which is already very complicated now. And I actually wrote this post on Tuesday 27th April 2010 at 7.45pm. It couldnt be published, I've no idea why. Maybe it's because of the coding.

p/s: To whoever it may concern, i am trying and will do my very best to make things better but i will desperately need cooperation. It takes two to tango... =)


Tuesday, April 27, 2010

I am often asked these Qs:

"How are your studies?"

"How is your exam?"

"When is your exam?"


"Do you think you can make it for your exam?"

How am i supposed to answer?

Even if i answered, "No, i dont think i can make it for the coming exam. I still have a lot to study"

Will that make any difference?
The questioner wont be able to do anything also (forget the grammar here)

p/s: I'm coughing really badly now, how to stand two hours in lecture later? With the air cond, i'm sure i'l be coughing my heart out and make the hall noisy. Haiz... And PBL later some more, in a small closed room...! Double haiz...


Monday, April 26, 2010

I dislike falling sick. Other than getting all the attention from family members, there is nothing else to be looked forward to in falling ill. Work cannot be done, study cannot be completed, even staring into the monitor gets my eyes go blink blink.

-AkMaR- http://akmarr90.blogspot.com

Friday, April 23, 2010

I made a new discovery (I hope to win a Nobel Prize with this discovery... =D ) Ok, that joke is lame, i know.
Anyway, i found out that

Sore throat leads to increased frequency of visits to the toilet.
How? Sore throat leads to cough, leads to increased water intake, leads to increased blood volume leads to decreased water retention leads to increased urine output leads to increased toilet visit frequency.



Tuesday, April 6, 2010

I know this is a terribly late post but I STUBBORNLY STILL WANT TO WRITE ABOUT IT.

Anyway, IMU Muslim Society in collaboration with the Student Rep Council and Stdnt Service if i'm not mistaken, held an Amazing Craze on 27th March 2010. The game is a mimick of the Amazing Race but it's IMU edition and it's held in conjunction with the Earth Week. Each team consists of only two members and I got my husband to be my partner!! Yeay...!! The first prize was 2 tickets to Langkawi, 2nd was two tickets to Genting Highland and 3rd was two tickets to Sunway Lagoon. Me and my husband aimed the Sunway ticket bcos it's been a long time since we've been there, and we've never been there together.

And so, few weeks before the game, we started jogging! Uh wow.. I've nvr jog in the park near IMU before but i jogged bcos we wanted the Sunway ticket. We jogged for about 2-3 evenings per week. Running up the Bukit Komanwel made me realise that my stamina is very very low. I dared not stop jogging bcos I know perfectly well, once i stop i wont be able to start again. I'd better jog until i really cant move my leg anymore.

The game will take place in Kuala Lumpur city, and we weren't allowed to use our own transport. We need to use public transport and i'm because both me and my husband are from KL and we are very quite   familiar with public transport in KL. That gave us a plus mark.

Both of us also can communicate well, and will not quarrel with each other and so, i trust or at least hoped that we won't start to fight when we're under the pressure to win. That will make things turn bad for us.

I really anticipated the game...............
And this part of the story ends here.
I'll continue writing some other time. Till then, take care!


Tuesday, March 23, 2010

If you live in Malaysia, or if there’s just something about the slaughter of people you just can’t accept, you might like to sign this:
Tony Blair Is NOT Welcome To Malaysia Unless It’s To Stand Trial For The War Crimes He Stands Accused Of Petition to Malaysian People, Parliament, Courts and Immigration Service.
We the undersigned declare Tony Blair is:
a) A suspected war criminal.
b) Not immune from prosecution for his alleged crimes.
c) Jointly responsible for the deaths of over a million innocent civilians.
d) Not welcome in Malaysia unless it’s to enter a court of international law to be tried for the war crimes and crimes against humanity for which he stands accused.
Signatories call for:
 i) The Malaysian Authorities to declare Tony Blair “persona non grata”, thereby refusing him entry into its territory (scheduled between 23rd to 25th April 2010).
ii) Richard Tan, CEO of “Success Resources”, and upon the National Achievers Congress (NAC) to withdraw their shameful invitation to Tony Blair to speak at Sunway Pyramid Convention Centre, allowing Blair to make financial gains from his deadly decisions.

From Akmar
What is this all about? 
Well, to put it in a simpler sentence, Success Resources is holding  National Achievers Congress (NAC) at Sunway Pyramid Convention Centre in April 2010 and guess what, they are inviting Tony Blair as their speaker!
This will mean that the man who thought he managed to deceive the world by sending troops to unnecessary countries  (read Iraq and Afghanistan) and committed massive murder will be giving a talk on "achievers".
Bizarre enough?
And so, this petition calls for the declaration of Tony Blair as "persona non grata" thus denying him entry into Malaysia and preventing him from speaking in the congress. The petition also demand that Success Resources withdraw their invitation to Blair as a speaker in their congress. 

To sign the petition, click here.

The Watch Story

I was given a watch as my UPSR gift from my mum. It was a POLO watch, the first expensive watch i owned. My watches before that were those Sailormoon, Power Rangers pasar malam watches. I still have the receipt and  the watch box with me till now. *Yea i know, i'm just too sentimental to throw them away*

Anyway, the watch cost my mum RM39.90 (only?) in November 2001 and i really treasured the watch. The next year, i went to a district level girl guide camping with few other friends and teachers. It was a 3 days 2 nights camping. On the last day, in the toilet, i took the watch of my hands to shower, and put it next to my other stuff. And i forgot to wear it back after bathing. I went out of the toilet and go for the closing ceremony.

As usual, during and after the closing ceremony of a camp, participants will exchange numbers and addresses so that we can keep in touch with each other (frankly, i forgot where i put all the numbers).
Moments before going into my teacher's car to go back to school, i realised i wasnt wearing my watch, and i remembered vividly putting it next to my pants in the toilet, but i cant remember taking it back. And that was at least 4 hrs ago. The journey back to school was delayed bcos of me. I ran back to the toilet to look for the watch, and i went to look at other places as well. My friends helped in the hunting mission but all of us failed in agony.

And so, i sadly board the teacher's car and head back home. I cried along the way back, and fell asleep.
When i woke up, my eyes were sore, and i remembered back why i cried and tears started to drop again. When my parents fetch me from school, i cried telling them i lost the watch. At home, i cried again praying hard i'll find the watch. I dont even mind if i find it on the day i die. That was the extent of my imagination then...

Currently, i am wearing the watch my mum bought for me before i started my A Levels 3 yrs back, and i'm determined to use it until i finish my medical degree. Really hope i can take good care of the watch this time...

The Motorcycle Story

My mum has been using my car for more than a week now, her car went into "ICU".
And so, since she can't send me to campus, my dad needs to.
And my dad rides a motorbike everyday to work.
This brought us to one simple fact, "I've been going to IMU by motorbike for two consecutive days!"
The last time i went on a motorbike, if i am not mistaken was when i took the license, almost 3 yrs back. And so, the first journey ystrday was really exciting and scary.
It was so cold, my legs felt numb, but adrenaline is circulating in high amount in my body that cant stop myself from grinning along the journey, really..
I made few funny faces, playing with the muscles of the face and getting buccal tired by the time i reached IMU. =)


Sunday, March 14, 2010

On exam day...
Summative on Friday, 12th March.
I fell sick.. Great...
I cant really answer my paper, slept right after i finished answering, didnt even had the energy to check my answers.... *this could actually be a psychogenic illness but...........*

Post exam syndrome...
I know very well that i didnt do my best for the summative...
But as usual, i dont really sulk over it. This just mean that i need to strive harder for the next exam lah...
This weekend is one of my free-est weekend.
I didnt study at all, only did some of notes organising work, to prepare myself for the coming system, Haematology.

I went to Mines on Saturday, to Metro Kajang on Sunday. I actually planned to watch movie with my sis in Jusco tonight (Sunday) but she's too tired to accompany me (she had just came back from a state level competition in Banting for 2 days). At first i wanna watch Little Big Soldier but, the movie is no more on screen... =(
That's the disadvantage of delaying watching movie session, the movie is no more on screen, to buy the ori DVD, it's too expensive, pirated ones dont come in good quality. Haiz...  I heard Alice in Wonderland is a nice fantasy movie, maybe i'll persuade sis to go watch with me, if she has the time and mood (i'm starting to wonder who's the elder sis and who's younger now).

I printed a bundle of notes for the week early this morning, and i'm kinda highly motivated now, want to start a new chapter in my semester 3, to excel in exam... We'll see what i'll be writing here a week before the next summative k, most probably i'll be complaining of lack of preparation... Hahahaha...

Now is 9.06pm and 12hrs from now i should be in IMU lib, to start my day studying hard...again...
Ok, enough of rantings...


Sunday, March 7, 2010

Yea...only 5 days left for my summative 3...
God, i really am not ready for it yet..
I'm drained..
I heard this exam will be making 12.5% of my semester exam! Duh, that's a lot man...
I cant be playing this time, my result will determine my placement for the country i'm going for PMS.
I had nvr had the confident to say it out loud in case i couldn't make it.
But yea, i think i shd be saying it out loud now. A booster for me to achieve higher...


Now, i really need to study and push my way through this summative and score well for end of sem exam.

p/s: to Diana Rizal, sorry but ur birthday falls on my summative day. I dont hv time to buy any present yet, but be assured, i'll go for a nice "shopping and jalan2" during the weekend and come back to u with a gift on Monday the 15th. At first nk pretend tp forget ur birthday but since u know i didnt forget, i decided to announce it here je la.. Hahahaha...


Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Assalammualaikum wrt wbt.
Remember PMR History syllabus?

Parameswara, the Prince of Palembang which was ruled by Majapahit, ran to Temasik (Singapore).
There, he was treated nicely by Temagi, the ruler of Temasik. At that time, Temasik was under the power of the Siamese.

Now, what happened then?
The history goes that Parameswara killed Temagi, to get Temasik under his rulings.
But when Siam got to know that their representative, Temagi was killed, thet sent a troop to Temasik to capture Parameswara.
Parameswara then ran to Malaya and settled down in Malacca.
He built an empire in Malacca, and later started sending "protection money" to Siam so that they wont come and attack Malacca.

Now, time to think (or maybe imagine....)
Parameswara, the prince who managed to build Malacca, must be a smart man.
Even if not very smart, he can't be stupid, can he?
Why then, did he "foolishly" kill Temagi to get Temasik? Obviously he knew that Temasik is under Siam's ruling, and Siam was a VERY powerful country at that time, why then did he find trouble?
There was no way he can escape from killing Temagi could he?

Now, imagination comes in.
Who knows, Temagi actually flirted with Parameswara's wife or perhaps daughter at that time...
Then Parameswara was challenged, and killed Temagi.
Sounds logic right?
It's just like those Chinese Dynasties. The history is one thing, the story behind it is another.
Be it the admiral fell in love with the enemy's princess, or one of the 500 emperor's concubines.
Or one of the concubines tried to kill the empress to get the emperor's attention.
Or one of the princes tried to overthrow his own father so that he can be crowned.
Or anything at all.... (ok ok, maybe this is kinda too fairy tale but it can still happen, i'm sure)
There are reasons in every single thing that happen in this world.

So, i am vry sure something happened btw Temagi and Parameswara more than 800 yrs ago.
But the history i studied at school just stated that Parameswara wanted to overthrow Temagi, which for me is a very very foolish act.

Ok, i'm sorry that i really didnt do any extra reading before writing this. I dont know if any of our historian described what really happened but MOST Malaysian children only know what was taught at school, and that includes me.

p/s: Been long since i write. Haiz.. Exam in 2 weeks time, die die... A lot more to study.
I cant wait for 13th March, but I dont want 12th March to come. Can?


Friday, February 26, 2010

As stated, the article below is not written by me but by Yvonne Ridley.
It inspires me a lot and i would like to share it with everyone. The original article can be found here.

POLITICIANS AND JOURNALISTS just love to write about the oppression of women in Islam ... without even talking to the females beneath the veil.

They simply have no idea how Muslim women are protected and respected within the Islamic framework which was built more than 1400 years ago.
Yet, by writing about cultural issues like child brides, female circumcision, honor killings and forced marriages they wrongly believe they are coming from a point of knowledge.

And I am sick of Saudi Arabia being cited as an example of how women are subjigated in a country where they are banned from driving.
The issues above have simply nothing to do with Islam yet they still write and talk about them with an arrogant air of authority while wrongly blaming Islam. Please do not confuse cultural behavior with Islam.
I was asked to write about how Islam allows men to beat their wives. Sorry, not true. Yes, I'm sure critics of Islam will quote random Qur'anic verses or ahadith but all are usually taken out of context. If a man does raise a finger to his wife, he is not allowed to leave a mark on her body ... this is another way of the Qur'an saying; "Don't beat your wife, stupid".

Now let's take a glance at some really interesting statistics, hmm. I can almost hear the words pot, kettle, black. According to the National Domestic Violence Hotline, four million American women experience a serious assault by a partner during an average 12-month period.

On the average, more than three women are murdered by their husbands and boyfriends every day . . . that is nearly 5,500 women battered to death since 9/11.
Some might say that is a shocking indictment on such a civilized society, but before I sound too smug, I would say that violence against women is a global issue. Violent men do not come in any particular religious or cultural category. The reality is that one out of three women around the world has been beaten, coerced into sex or otherwise abused during her lifetime. Violence against women transcends religion, wealth, class, skin color and culture.
However, until Islam came on the scene women were treated as inferior beings. In fact we women still have a problem in the West where men think they are superior. This is reflected in our promotion and wages structure right across the spectrum from cleaners to career women who make it into the boardroom.
Western women are still treated as commodities, where sexual slavery is on the rise, disguised under marketing euphemisms, where womens’ bodies are traded throughout the advertising world. As mentioned before, this is a society where rape, sexual assault, and violence on women is commonplace, a society where the equality between men and women is an illusion, a society where a womens’ power or influence is usually only related to the size of her breasts.
I used to look at veiled women as quiet, oppressed creatures and now I look at them as multi-skilled, multi-talented, resilient women whose brand of sisterhood makes Western feminism pale into insignificance. My views changed after the truly terrifying experience of being arrested by the Taleban for sneaking into Afghanistan in September 2001 wearing the bhurka.
During my 10-day captivity I struck a deal that if they let me go I would read the Quran and study Islam. Against all the odds, it worked and I was released. In return I kept my word but as a journalist covering the Middle East I realized I needed to expand my knowledge of a religion which was clearly a way of life.
And no. I'm not a victim of Stockholm Syndrome. To be a victim you have to bond with your captors. During my imprisonment I spat, swore, cursed and abused my jailers as well as refusing their food and going on hunger strike. I don't know who was happier when I was released - them or me!
Reading the Quran was, I thought, going to be a very simple academic exercise. I was stunned to discover that ut clearly stated women are equal in spirituality, education and worth. A woman’s gift for child birth and child-rearing is very much recognised as a quality and attribute. Muslim women say with pride they are homemakers and housewives.
Furthermore The Prophet (pbuh) said that the most important person in the home was The Mother, The Mother, The Mother. In fact he also said that heaven lies at the feet of the mother. How many women make it into the top 100 power lists for simply being a "great mother"?
With Islam choosing to remain at home and raise children takes on a new dignity and respect in my eyes, similar to those sisters among us who choose to go out to work and have careers and professions.
I then began looking at inheritance, tax, property and divorce laws. This is where Hollywood divorce lawyers probably get their inspiration from. For instance the woman gets to keep what she earns and owns while the man has to stump up half his worth.
Isn’t it funny the way the tabloid media gets very excited over the prospect of some pop or film stars pre-nuptial wedding agreement? Muslim women have had wedding contracts from day one. They can choose if they want to work or not and anything they earn is theirs to spend while the husband has to pay for all the household bills and the upkeep of his family.
Just about everything that feminists strived for in the 70s was already available to Muslim women 1400 years ago.
As I said, Islam dignifies and brings respect to motherhood and being a wife. If you want to stay at home, stay at home. It is a great honor to be a home maker and the first educater of your children.
But equally, the Quran states if you want to work, then work. Be a career woman, learn a profession become a politician. Be what you want to be and excel in what you do as a Muslim because everything you do is in praise of Allah (swt).
There is an excessive, almost irritating concentration or focus on the issue of Muslim womens’ dress particularly by men (both Muslim and non-Muslim).
Yes, it is an obligation for Muslim women to dress modestly but, in addition, there are many other important issues which concern Muslim women today.
And yet everyone obsesses over the hijab. Look, it is part of my business suit. This tells you I am a Muslim and therefore I expect to be treated with respect.
Can you imagine if someone told a Wall Street executive or Washington banker to put on a t-shirt and jeans? He would tell you his business suit defines him during work hours, marks him out to be treated seriously.
And yet in Britain we have had the former Foreign Secretary Jack Straw describing the nikab - the face veil revealing only the eyes - as an unwelcome barrier. When, oh when, will men learn to keep their mouths shut over a woman's wardrobe?
We also had Government Ministers Gordon Brown and John Reid express disparaging remarks about the nikab - both these men come from over the Scottish Borders where men wear skirts!!
Then we had a series of other parliamentarians enter the fray describing the nikab as a barrier for communication. What a load of nonsense. If this was the case can anyone explain to me why cell phones, landlines, emails, text messaging and fax machines are in daily use? Who listens to the radio? No one switches off the wireless because they can not see the face of the presenter.
The majority of sisters I know who choose to wear the nikab are actually white, Western reverts who no longer want the unwelcome attention of those few leering men who will try and confront females and launch into inappropriate behavior. Mind you, there are a couple of London sisters I know who say they wear the nikab at anti-war marches because they can't stand the smell of spliffs.
I am afraid Islamophobia has become the last refuge of the racist scoundrel. But the cowardly, chauvinistic attacks launched - largely by men - is unacceptable to Muslimahs as well as their secular, female sisters from the left.
I was a feminist for many years and now, as an Islamic feminist, I still promote womens' rights. The only difference is Muslim feminists are more radical than their secular counterparts. We all hate those ghastly beauty pageants, and tried to stop laughing when the emergence of Miss Afghanistan in bikini was hailed as a giant leap for women's liberation in Afghanistan.
I've been back to Afghanistan many times and I can tell you there are no career women emerging from the rubble in Kabul. My Afghan sisters say they wish the West would drop its obsession with the bhurka. "Don't try turning me into a career woman, get my husband a job first. Show me how I can send my children to school without fear of them being kidnapped. Give me security and bread on the table," one sister told me.
Young feminist Muslimahs see the hijab and the nikab as political symbols as well as a religious requirement. Some say it is their way of showing the world they reject the excesses of Western lifestyles such as binge drinking, casual sex, drug-taking etc.
Superiority in Islam is accomplished through piety, not beauty, wealth, power, position or sex.
Now you tell me what is more liberating. Being judged on the length of your skirt and the size of your cosmetically enhanced breasts, or being judged on your character, mind and intelligence?
Glossy magazines tell us as women that unless we are tall, slim and beautiful we will be unloved and unwanted. The pressure on teenage magazine readers to have a boyfriend is almost obscene.
Islam tells me that I have a right to an education and it is my duty to go out and seek knowledge whether I am single or married.
No where in the framework of Islam are we told as women that we must do washing, cleaning or cooking for men - but it is not just Muslim men who need to re-evaluate women in their home. Check out this 1992 exert from a Pat Robertson speech revealing his views on empowered women. And then you tell me who is civilized and who is not.
Here is an American man living in a pre-Islamic age who needs to modernize and civilize. People like him are wearing a veil and we need to tear that veil of bigotry away so people can see Islam for what it is.

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Lately i can only go online when i am in IMU.
This is due to the fact that the No1 broadband in Malaysia actually frustrated me.
My modem lights keep blinking, indicating of the lack of internet connection.
Interestingly enough, every time i take up the house phone to call streamyx, the light stopped blinking, they stay lit.

And this doesnt happen only once.
When i first called streamyx, i gotta go through lines of operators.
Untuk BM press 1, for English press 2
For telephone and data, press1. For internet, press 2 and bla bla bla...

And by the time i reach a human to talk to, their staff, the lights are stable and steady. NO BLINKING.
So, i dont hv any report to be done anymore, and according to the telephonist who checked my acc, i am connected to the internet.
Then, i say thank you and hang up.
Then, the lights start blinking again!

I didnt notice the pattern at first but after a few idiotic attempts to call them to report and putting the phone down when the modem lights go stable, i finally see the pattern.
And so, every night after IMU, if i want to go online, i would hv to do a phone call using my hse phone.
So far, i've only called streamyx and hang up JUST BEFORE i am connected to the telephonist.
And then, i will call them again, hear all the adverts and instructions from the operator, to keep my internet going and then putting down the phone again JUST BEFORE i am connected to the human telephonist.

I hv yet to try calling other ppl to see if the same trick works.
U see, i cant just put down on ppl while they were talking neither can i talk while surfing the internet at the same time.
And so, life is a test.
And without doubt, i am writing this in IMU library.... =P